My first post on this subject got a good bit more dry and lecture-like than I originally intended because I frequently crave structure when I write. But you know, sometimes you just need to be raw and honest. So that’s what this post is going to be: raw and honest; I’m just going to be informally candid here.
I know… this is my third post in a row writing about this, but rarely has a subject reached so deeply into my heart and grabbed hold of it like this one has:
*”No one knows… what it’s like…to be free…”
*”Does anyone know… what it’s like… to be free…?”
The best way I can describe what has been happening to me lately is to simply say that God has lit a fire in me with regard to unbelievers. And I saw the movie Left Behind at the theater a week and a half ago, which only added fuel to the aforementioned fire. Although no one knows for sure exactly when this scenario will take place, for those of us who believe the bible, we know the Left Behind scenario (minus the fictional characters’ storylines) will happen…sometime. Since you can practically cross-reference biblical prophecy with the evening news these days, it appears as though there is at least a small possibility it may happen at some point in the not too distant future. (However since I’m sure every generation before mine has probably thought the same thing, it’s equally possible my generation won’t, in fact, be alive to see it.) That’s just it though. We don’t know. Jesus could return in several minutes, days, weeks, months, years, decades, or even further down the road than that. But whether He returns for His church in my lifetime or not, I want to know I did whatever I could to share God’s love with as many people as possible. I don’t want to have regrets thinking, “I could have/should have done more.”
I still don’t know exactly what all of this is supposed to look like for me on a day-to-day basis. But I’m ok with not knowing. God knows – and that’s all that really matters. All I can do is continue to pray for more and more opportunities to share His love, courage to step up and walk through when He opens a door, and His wisdom to say the right thing.
I am not a great Christian. I stumble and fail Him daily. But I love and serve a GREAT God, and He can use anything and anyone to reach whomever He pleases. I am honored that He chooses to use me at all to love people for Him and to further His kingdom in some small way here and there.
Do you have a fire burning in your heart to see the lost come to faith in Christ? If not, what’s quenching it? If Jesus came back for us tomorrow, who would you regret not sharing the gospel with or showing God’s love to? What’s holding you back?
*from the song “Free” by Total Surrender