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It’s humbling when you have to apologize to someone because you either said the wrong thing, or maybe there was nothing inherently wrong with what you said, but the timing was way off (which makes it way awkward). When I feel the weight of God’s conviction to apologize (for anything) I can’t focus on anything else until I’ve been obedient and apologized/asked forgiveness.

That happened to me today. I’m embarrassed and feel ashamed of myself for not taking the time to pray about what I said first, but it happened and unfortunately there are no backsies once something comes out of your mouth. It wasn’t a bad thing I said at all, but the timing was not right. So in a way, although what I said wasn’t bad, because I shouldn’t have said it when I did, it left a really icky flavor in my mouth almost immediately afterwards. I apologized to the person in a message, and asked God to forgive me too, but I am very hard on myself so am still feeling embarrassed and ashamed.

Dealing with shame is a totally different topic for another day though. It’s an issue that has plagued me for most of my life and I am actively seeking healing from God for this. I’ll keep you posted. In the meantime, I hope it helps younger believers to know that people who have been following Christ for over 35 years still sometimes make a mess of things. None of us have it all together! Which is why I am so thankful for His mercy and grace.

If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just and will forgive us our sins and purify us from all unrighteousness. (1 John 1:9, NIV)